Thursday, February 24, 2011

Cloud 9 Update

So I went out with The Greek again last night. Again I had a wonderful time. We went to Max Brenner's Chocolate by the Bald Man. It was unbelieveable. We had desserts but the food was so good. I was in sugar shock by the time I left. He's working every day and night for the rest of this week so I won't see him till next Thursday but that's ok. Maybe we'll finally kiss by then I dunno. We'll see. All I know is I'm enjoying myself and that so far he's good to me. So I'm thrilled. And that's all that matters right now. We'll figure out the rest as it comes. :)

Monday, February 21, 2011

Blogging from Cloud 9

So I've been in a state of giddy girlish excitement since early last week. I can't even remember when exactly. I've been seeing The Greek more frequently and omg hoe different he is from Blue Eyes. I had already arranged to meet him on Thursday of last week, and Thursday was such a beautiful day here. I texted him in the morning asking him how he was and stuff. He replies, "I can't complain the sun is Shining. We're meeting for coffee later. It's going to be a good day." Well that was it for me. If I wasn't giddy stupid before I certainly became that way after. And why wouldn't I be. I really do like this guy of course its still early on but he's been so nice so far and I don't know. I want to believe that things will be good. That they are good. That he isn't jerking me around. I don't think he is but I also don't want to be blind to the possibility that he might be. It seems like he's interested. I know I am. It's just going to take some time is all. He did mention something about going out this week again. I just need to know when he wants to go. It's his schedule that's messy with his long work hours. But I'm glad that he does work and that he's dedicated to doing his job. Right now I don't care that he works in the food industry. He's got a good head on his shoulders and he's responsible. He wants to buy his own house. To me that's a def sign of maturity that Blue Eyes hasn't even grasped yet. I've been wanting to buy my own house for the longest time I just know I can't afford it right now.

Ok anyway I've lost my train of thought now because I started this earlier this morning and it's now later in the afternoon!!

To sum it all up... I'm happy I'm seeing a guy that so far is being good to me and I hope it keeps on in that way. :)

Monday, February 7, 2011

Women are supposed to make the first move?

Blue Eyes and I were talking - Yes I know I shouldn't be but I can't help it - and he happened to mention a moment that we shared in his car that night I saw him before I left for Greece. He said that he was waiting for me to kiss him but that I pulled away and it's baffled him ever since.

I said to him well if you wanted that to happen why didn't you. He told me that's because it's just how it is. I have to make the first move. When did society change so much that men expect us to make the first move in a potentially romantic situation? Don't moron men know that a woman wants to be swept off her feet first, THEN she takes the reins and calls the shots??!??! 

I'm too damn old to be playing these high school  games!!!

Friday, February 4, 2011

The Greek

So I went out with The Greek last night. We went to the Philly Car Show. It wasn't bad. Really interesting. I can say that I was in a room with a Bentley, a Rolls Royce, a Ferrari, a Labourgini, a Masterati, and  an Aston Martin.  That's probably the only way I'll ever get to see those types of cars again. :)

Anyway, we had a good time. I know I did. He said he did. Then we walk back to the parking lot and he said, "Be careful getting home and keep in touch."

What's that shit about?


Tuesday, February 1, 2011

Week from Hell 2

This was just bad. My brother is almost like a son to me but he's still a brother. There are seven years that separate us but still I was like a little mommy to him all my life.

He's been nagging at my mom since the fall about going out to this school in Seattle. He just wanted to up and move there without knowing if he was even going to get into the school, where he was going to live. Nothing. I say this now because he never communicated any other information back to us other than he wanted to go. My mom went online and found out more information about the school. She told him I want you to apply to the school, I want to know that you have a place there and that I know what you are going to do there by yourself and not be starving on the streets alone without a way to come back home. She was even willing to pay his tuition, rent, utilities whatever. She was just thrilled to see that he showed some excitement over a college to go to. This seems reasonable to me. I never saw anything wrong with her demands. I mean if you really wanted to go somewhere or do something wouldn't you do everything you could so your parents could see it your way? Like apply and get accepted to the school, apply for a job etc. And as a parent wouldn't you want that piece of mind to know your child is safe and secure?

Ok I find that I can't type much more without wanting to cry. So to keep this short I'll just say that he booked tickets, hotel and a car for himself and his friend to Seattle back on 1/13. Didn't say anything to either my, or our parents till ONE HOUR before his flight, hid his suitcase in the backyard and left for Seattle yesterday afternoon. Supposedly he says he's coming back but I am so heart broke it isn't even funny.

Tuesday, January 25, 2011

It's a small world

Ok so I haven't been completely honest with you all. You have to  understand; this whole thing is very new to me.
 Back in August when Blue Eyes made his demands and then I stopped talking to him, I met someone online. And it was fun. Again we would chat through Facebook and texting (I understand this technology makes it easier to communicate but I miss talking to someone on the phone for hours on end about whatever). We did meet in person at a bar and his two buddies joined us as well. If I remember right this was sometime in late November after Thanksgiving. I'm going to call this one The Greek so he has a name. :)

We made a plan to meet up again and go out in December but then I got sick and I had to cancel on him. Since then we haven't really been talking much via text. See before a day didn't go by that we weren't texting from the moment I woke up till I went to bed. He works very long hours so getting together is kind of tough anyway. and it was strange to go through a day without hearing from him at all. Once in a while we would text but it just died down. And now with Blue Eyes cropping up every once in a while I wasn't sure what was going on. I started feeling that he and I had said pretty much all we could say via text so I figured he washed his hands of me and that was the end of it.

Yesterday though something possessed me to text him and ask if he was interested in cashing in on that rain check. He replied back that he was going out Wednesday night with some friends and that I was welcome to join him. And I agreed. Of course listening to the weather report it's supposed to sleet, rain, freezing rain then snow all day and night tomorrow. Just my luck. Oh but wait it gets better. This morning when I logged into Facebook I saw that The Greek and Blue Eyes are now friends. 

It's a too damn small world!! 

Sunday, January 23, 2011

Blue Eyes update

Yesterday, my mom, Aunt and I were sitting around the kitchen table eating lunch and talking about Blue Eyes. We all pretty much said the same thing, he is a nice person and a great guy if it wasn't for his views on sex. We all believe that he hasn't really done anything sexually and he wants to try it before he commits to anyone. That was pretty much the end of the discussion but I totally believe that with all of my heart.

So I go about my business the rest of the day. I went to a friends house and had her little kids entertain me. I had a blast. Anyway, while  there Blue Eyes sends me a text message about how he keeps trying to think of things to say so that I could trust him again but that he believes it's never going to happen. I told him that I actually did trust him, and I do, it's just the way he thinks about sex hurts me. Makes me feel worthless, and I don't know what to do or think anymore. He replied back that he doesn't know what he can say other then times are tough and he's trying to give me all that he can offer. (Which is still friends with benefits). I then texted him back and told him that there will always be good times and bad times. The bad times never go away and that he needs to understand where I'm coming from here. That I want to be friends with him but also I want something more and that I respect myself too much to just jump into bed with him or anyone else for that matter. He replied back that he understands completely but that it's just a shitty situation. I told him that this does suck all around and that I'd like us to at least be friends and hang out but that we don't even do that. He replied back saying that his schedule and his responsibilities make things hard for him to plan. At this point I wanted to say well that's where you make me a responsibility and just like you tell me no I can't meet up tonight you turn around and tell the other person no and come see me. But I didn't of course. I just told him that my schedule is just as crazy and that it's hard to plan things for me too. I'm still waiting for a reply to that text.

And that's another thing that pisses me off. This is all done through text and never through a phone call or for him to even say can we meet up and talk. Nothing. I though things were over between us then he does little shit like this and I don't know where I am anymore.

What do you guys think? I am I still crazy for talking to him, even now?