Yesterday, my mom, Aunt and I were sitting around the kitchen table eating lunch and talking about Blue Eyes. We all pretty much said the same thing, he is a nice person and a great guy if it wasn't for his views on sex. We all believe that he hasn't really done anything sexually and he wants to try it before he commits to anyone. That was pretty much the end of the discussion but I totally believe that with all of my heart.
So I go about my business the rest of the day. I went to a friends house and had her little kids entertain me. I had a blast. Anyway, while there Blue Eyes sends me a text message about how he keeps trying to think of things to say so that I could trust him again but that he believes it's never going to happen. I told him that I actually did trust him, and I do, it's just the way he thinks about sex hurts me. Makes me feel worthless, and I don't know what to do or think anymore. He replied back that he doesn't know what he can say other then times are tough and he's trying to give me all that he can offer. (Which is still friends with benefits). I then texted him back and told him that there will always be good times and bad times. The bad times never go away and that he needs to understand where I'm coming from here. That I want to be friends with him but also I want something more and that I respect myself too much to just jump into bed with him or anyone else for that matter. He replied back that he understands completely but that it's just a shitty situation. I told him that this does suck all around and that I'd like us to at least be friends and hang out but that we don't even do that. He replied back saying that his schedule and his responsibilities make things hard for him to plan. At this point I wanted to say well that's where you make me a responsibility and just like you tell me no I can't meet up tonight you turn around and tell the other person no and come see me. But I didn't of course. I just told him that my schedule is just as crazy and that it's hard to plan things for me too. I'm still waiting for a reply to that text.
And that's another thing that pisses me off. This is all done through text and never through a phone call or for him to even say can we meet up and talk. Nothing. I though things were over between us then he does little shit like this and I don't know where I am anymore.
What do you guys think? I am I still crazy for talking to him, even now?